Just Those Few Weeks

two sonsIt’s just after midnight and I can’t sleep… too many emotions….too many thoughts….

June 3rd…

A day I lost my third child.

Yes, a third child…two of them were lost in the womb; the third through selfishness and the legal process.

I really want to shame the biological parents of the son I was to have…but that is not the way of Jesus.

The way of Jesus is to bless those who hurt you… so I pray blessings, love, grace and mercy on them. May the King of Kings ever be in their sight; may they be the parents that my son needs them to be.

And, Lord, while you are at it… could you help me figure out how to process this ’cause I don’t know how…

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The below poem has been hanging on our wall for the past six years in remembrance of the two children we lost in the womb. Now it is a reminder of our third child… Andrew, we only knew you for a few weeks…but in that time you changed our lives. May you grow old knowing you were loved.

 

Just Those Few Weeks
By Susan Erling
For those few weeks
I had you to myself.
And that seems to short of time
to be changed so profoundly.In those few weeks
I came to know you
and love you.
You came to trust me with your life
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks
When I lost you,
I lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans, dreams, and aspirations.
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks
It wasn’t enough time to convince others
how special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.

Just a mere few weeks
And no “normal” person would cry all night
over a tiny, unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I?

You were just those few weeks my little one
you darted in an out of my life too quickly.
It seems that’s all the time you needed
to make my life so much richer
and give me a small glimpse of eternity.

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